At the end of the day, I can only rely on myself. It sucks but life isnt always fair. It will be better this way I guess. So I don’t get more disappointed.

we wonder, how did we get to where we are? Because if we look back a year from now I’m sure we would have never guessed to be where we are now at this very second. I was at such a comfortable place that I never expected things to change. Change can be scary, but sometimes it can be the best thing to hit you. It’s unexpected, but sometimes the unexpected isn’t so bad. We have one life to live. Live it to the fullest. Make choices in life and never regret, because I can assure you, as one door closes, a better door will always open and good things will be waiting for you on the other side. Life can get hard, and sometimes you may want to give up, but good things don’t just come easy. You must work hard for it. If it was easy to achieve, life wouldn’t be an adventure or a mystery. So just remember to never give up. Smile, get back up, and keep on going. 

We want to travel the world and explore its many beautiful places. We want to fall in love. We want to go do crazy things and have an adventure and live life to its fullest.

However; with all that, one thing will be different and that is who youre doing it with. :)

You know you best. You know what makes you happy. You know what to do to cheer you up when you’re down. Noone else knows you better than yourself regardless what people say. So remember to make yourself happy first, love yourself first, and then maybe just maybe someone can learn to love you like you’ve learned to love yourself.

When you feel alone, know that you are much stronger than that and you can overcome anything. You just gotta learn to believe in yourself. Youre never rrally alone when you got yourself.

No matter how sad you feel or how bad of a day you have, change it to being happy because every second you are sad is a second of happiness youll lose and never get back..

Make the most of of your life. Life’s short, stay smilin’

Never get attached to anyone.

If things dont work out between us I can honestly say, I’ll be okay. My life goes on whether you decide to be there with me or not. I’ll continue to live my life as I had been when you werent around. Friends is what have made me realize a lot and I will forever be grateful. I hated I was so blind by love. Never again.

I havent written too much of my feelings down lately. Even with my private posts I havent posted much. Everything is just slowly getting so much better for me that i dont need to really let anything out.. I started doing things I loved again and its honestly the best feeling to have your mind stop thinking all the bad things for that whole moment you do something that makes you truly happy. its to the point now even when im just laying there the happiness is still there. I love that feeling. Feeling confident in everything I do and perfecting it til I get it down :)

I just realized a bunch of things I was doing wrong. I was too caught up in it all that its just not how it works. Never give someone your time of day when they dont do the same.. make time for yourself and only you :) thats how you find your own happiness because you do things you want to make you happy on your own. :)

It’s been awhile since I’ve had such good laughs.. I’m getting better I think and I am very happy. I have realized my self worth, and I know that I can be happy. I was the only one stopping myself from being happy, but after surrounding myself with old friends and new, I love that I can make people laugh because it makes me laugh and I’m just simply being myself. I don’t know why I was so down for nothing.. I wasted so many moments I could have spent smiling and being happy. It’s really true that time heals all wounds.. You can only go up from here. I am just happy I can be happy on my own again. I felt not worth it for a little while but my great friends have told me that I am better than this and I have come to believe it. :) I know I can be and that this isn’t me. I am worth it, and I am a great person and if someone doesn’t see that.. why should I be down on myself? Someone out there will see that I am an amazing person.. You gotta learn to love yourself completely before someone can love you as well..

I give out such great advices from mistakes I did in the past to help others relationships.. :D but, I then look back and wish I had someone there for me as well.. if someone was there to warn me and tell me I shouldn’t do this and that.. I know for a fact things would have been great. I always didn’t see the others persons feeling.. I never looked outside the box. Now I’m giving advice on mistakes I learned to others and I mean it feels great cuz I feel so smart with all the answers and such but then I look at myself and see where I’m at.. I mean I myself know that I’ve changed and definitely learned from my mistakes and all the things I had done wrong.. but it’s not always up to me to give things another try.. This is my punishment.. and I have to deal with it, whether it comes out with what I want or not.. I messed up.. and I can only learn from it I guess. It just sucks how I still want to work things out with just one person, but I get no feedback as to what they want or thinking. I have to sit in the dark. But I know I can’t sit around all the time. I’ve done a bunch of things lately to help and it’s really nice. I am becoming who I was before I was in a relationship. Happy and just not so sad all the time. I can’t wait forever.. but I’m willing to still wait things out a little longer and see where it all goes. I just hope it won’t go to waste like how everyone keeps telling me. I have faith in things so we’ll just see I guess. :)